reading old journals

"also, I want to find out what makes me happy. I want to write forever and ever. even if it is just grocery lists when I am too old to do my own shopping" 6/15/07

"I want to feel like a book full of empty pages; right now I feel like a book full of the wrong words" 10/22/07 

"when your best friend is drunk and gets into a car wreck and goes into a coma with a collapsed lung and possible brain damage you make tea and let the tears fall and go see him in the hospital even though he can’t see you and you remember the good times." 5/3/08 
“I don’t doubt that he will wake up. I’m just scared he will wake up and he won’t be the same.” 5/4/08

"honestly, I am embarrassed by some things I’ve written in here." 7/9/08 

and then the journals are long lost history until 2013 

it’s beautiful how time changes everything
how you look back and realize your emotions were so silly and blinded you so heavily to what mattered most but they were real and valid and that is the person you are, full of these crazy yet necessary emotions.

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I want to question things and people and situations

but I need to let things flow as they are intended to~

"I can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. It’s all a question of how I view my life."
Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes (via observando)


be nice to plants. pet grass. dont step on bugs. feed birds. give water to flowers. don’t hurt bees. tell trees they are cute and confident. tell yourself you are cute and confident. help people. be nice to the earth. 

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saying goodbye

to all the people in my life that no longer serve my purpose is difficult
coming face to face with one of them and telling them things will be different and never be the same
it hurts
even though it’s for a

greater good

it still hurts and …
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"I am fucking insane but my intentions are gold and my heart is pure."
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"Don’t seek, don’t search, don’t ask, don’t knock, don’t demand – relax. If you relax, it comes. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, you start vibrating with it."
OSHO (via safari-black)

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"You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star."
Friedrich Nietzsche (via observando)